and there is plenty of it in my life right now. I can feel myself growing up, the responsibility of adulthood weighing upon me, and my life around me changing as well. It's scary, and overwhelming, but never have I felt more able to handle all of it. I am strong in God, He is such a foundation for me. I need to rely upon Him. What is His plan for my life? I pray that I can lay myself completely into His hands. I don't want to live life for myself, I don't want to plan my own life. I want Him to show me the steps daily that my feet, my heart, my actions should take. I'm always so afraid of making a mistake, and I understand that fear within myself comes from doubt and lack of trust. I'm not perfect, I will make mistakes, but I won't make harmful mistakes if God is leading me.
My Junior year is over, and I have just one more year of college before life begins...I already wonder what that life will be like after I graduate. Will I be happy? Will I feel trapped in a life that I didn't feel ready for? OR will things feel new, but solid, exciting and good? I'm praying for that time in my life, because it causes me stress if I don't hand over to the Big Guy. He's got my back, this I know. I guess I'm getting ahead of myself...I mean I still have to conquer my senior year! I've already got a lot of responsibility next year...I'm good with responsibility, but when new elements are added into my life sometimes it takes me a while to find my groove and find balance. Sometimes that process takes me longer than I would like, but in those times I have personal growth...so I guess I should embrace that learning process.
Summer so far has been nice, but unproductive (and I like to be productive!!!). The weather has yes, been warm, BUT the past few days it has been just lovely...! It was around 75 today with a slight breeze! It makes it more bearable being so far away from the beach, which I already miss (who knew). Jake and I were able to have a great day together on Friday. It was so nice. We saw Just Wright (Queen Latifah is great on so many levels), and we spent the rest of the day at a Diamondbacks game, but not before eating at Karim's...yummy! I'm starting to really enjoy days at the ballpark. Maybe it's just being with Jake, or maybe it's just my growing passion and understanding of baseball and sports in general. I have a growing appreciation I think. Anyway, the evening was finished off with some fireworks, and then Jake and I went for a cold treat at Cold Stone. I miss not seeing him every day, but I'm happy when we do get to spend time together.
Soooooo, I have no huge summer plans, but I'll keep ya updated, and hopefully become a more frequent blogger? Maybe, just maybe.
Lots of Love,
Megan
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